As for now we are on our 7th metal health hospitalization in the last year. Ash has been having what they call " pseudo seizures" with her episodes.
I got a call from Dysart high yesterday before nine saying that my daughter had walked into the nurses office and fainted. I was to come and get her and bring her home.
On my way into the nurses office her counselor came out of her office as I passed by and she cam out to tell me that Ash had come in to see her and had told her that she said she had feelings of self harm and had called the teen help line the night before. I felt like the worst mom ever because I felt that I was part of the reason for her break. I wasn't home when she got home from school because I had to sign papers for a house we were short selling and she had forgotten her keys and was frustrated because she was locked out and I was unable to come home to let her in.
By the time I got to the nurses office she had started seizures and become combative and aggitated between seizures. I knew I wasn't going to be able to keep her safe at home an knew I was going to have to take her in because her meds weren't working for her (that is part of the problems with bipolar disorder, meds can stop working at any time). Last time I took her in when she was like that she tried to open the car door and it was scary for me. We decided that she needed to be transported by ambulance so that we could keep her safe.
By the time I got to her room the nurses had her in a gown and had drawn blood etc... they had a nurse to watch her which is common with patients of her type. She had been continuing the" psudo seizures and seemed to be stuck in a pattern of having a seizure, being combative while mumbling in audibly under her breath, then hyperventilating and then passing out, sleep for 15 min to a half of hour and start over again. As a mom it was really hard for me to watch. I was going to leave to get something to eat, but in the past when I have left and come back she has been passed out hanging over the side of the bed. It was a good thing I didn't leave because during her combative state it took both me and the nurse all of our might to keep her from jumping out of bed and running away.
She continued this all day till about four. I tried pleading with doctors and nurses to give her the anti anxiety meds that the psychologist had prescribed for her, but it fell on deaf ears....
she was put in a room and forgotten and doc didn't care about the seizures or the combativeness.
Finally doc came back and said that all her labs were fine and he was discharging her and he would get paperwork ready so I could take her home. WHAT!!!! I cannot take that combative , seziuring child home with me.... I cannot keep my child safe at home.. I cannot babysit her 24/7....
OUT POPPED MY MOMMA BEAR CLAWS!!!!!!
( to be continued when I get a chance..)
